well it's been such a nice day outside!!! The only thing that sux is that I can't seem to sleep at all but the up side is that tony & i did make cookies together so that's a good thing! I had to help him out w/the flour because some reason whenever you use margarine instead of butter, it takes too much flour away from the mixture & you have to add one more cup to the mixture. It never fails no matter what you do, you always have to. I am not sure if anyone else has had this problem but my whole fam has and now tony. Well actually, we didn't make the cookies together, he mainly made them which wasn't much fun at all! I was hoping that maybe him & I could do it together you know? But unfortunatley that didnt work out as planned! So it was just me watching over him & that wasn't too much fun at all! But I did ask him to get semisweet chocolate as well as milk chocolate to the mix !! I've always wanted to do that but my dad would never let me! He was it was a waste of $$!! So I figured tony wouldn't mind doing that, so he just got both of them!! they tasted really very much good too!! :) He likes them this way(from scratch)better than getting them prepared for you & all you've got to do is just cut the package open and fix the cookies on the sheet the way you want. This is a lot cheaper because you get a lot more cookies this way then you do that other way! SO next poker nite he'll be baking them(at least that's what I got the impression)so that'll be cool. Well it said it was quiet a bit of work for a meal & he's never worked this hard before for one!! LOL! WOW, that's for sure but I never realized that til he said it!
I'm normally the one who does the cooking/baking stuff!! I can't wait til easter because my parents are giving me a baking basket this year since we don't have cupcake pans or any of those things that you need to bake cupcakes! I can't wait, I haven't baked in such a long time..maybe I'll not be able to perform like I normally do!! LOL j/k!
I must say that this new under eye cream from oil of olay(under eye gel)is working wonders for my fine lines. I've only been using the product for a wk(day & nite)the results are great! My lines are reduced a lot and my skin looks so much better under the eyes. :) very happy about that one!
I'm seeing my parents tomorrow(actually today sometime)because there's certified mail for me..I hope it's nothing bad...from healing garden I think my mom told me! Not sure what the hell that would be, but I guess I'll find out next wk when they can get my mail!! It came to their house by UPS this morning the paper says but no one was home so they went to the post office to give it to them. So anyways, I guess that I need to sign for it so they can get my mail in the first place, wow!! that's something huh? I won that bag the other wk, just hope that it's not anything that's a problem, i hope it's something that i won from a contest that i entered. Because that would be very cool indeed. Wow, it's only 4am & i still cant sleep!!
Everytime I try to close my eyes, all i can think about is images of people getting bite w/tons of blood coming out to the images of the woman giving birth w/blood everywhere w/the zombie baby. I have princess in here w/me because she came in on her own but it makes me feel better some how. I know that no zombies are going to get me or anything but still, i feel better knowing that she's in here w/me! Ok mabye if something was going to get me this early morning, she might not the best thing to help me out but it's the comfort thing that i need right now! I need to know that i am safe, and closing my eys is not safe for me. At least that's what my brain is thinking! That dawn of the dead screwed me alot!! Just like dreamcatcher by steven king was scary for me, tony didn't care for it too much at all! I thought that the suspect elements were really scarey as well as the scenes. But I must say that dreamcatcher as well as dawn had a few parts of humor which was good to make it less suspectful & scarey for awhile. If you haven't seen this movie & want do don't read the end of the next part(I've put in big letters that it's safe to read just scroll down the page):
but i can't believe that tony & his friends(they're dumbyheads anyways)couldn't see that they were all going to die in the end then he's just stupid! I mean come on now! what else is going to happen? I mean these creatures came out of no one where & why didnt someone say, hey--maybe the zombies or other people already thought of going to an island to get away but of course you can't get away from people that are DEAD! They don't need anything but human flesh to survive! but whatever i guess they're just not intuned w/their smart sides!
OK, IT'S SAFE TO READ THE REST OF THE ENTRY: So anyways, that's just my feelings on that movie! Dave was there all assholey like because he was like so what did you think? Tony was like i liked it, and i said it was predictable!! Then dave made the comment then she deserves to die and my "wonderful" boyfriend didn't even say dave please don't say such mean things about my girlfriend thank you. That's what pisses me off, Dave can treat me like shit but Tony does nothing! He doesn't say she's got her own opinion Dave so just leave her alone. NO of course not, and you want to know why? B/c he doesn't care! I don't care if dave has a crush on me, I don't care if dave is the sadest man in america he should not treat me like that! He should know to treat me w/respect, even if he doesn't like me too much(or does but is just hiding it). The thing that got me yesterday was that tony after we got back here, he says well i give the movie a C- too many holes and stuff that they didn't answer. Things were just dragging on in the middle with all the happiness going on, that was annoying as well as b/c I just wanted the whole damn movie to end. I know that I don't like those movies but that one has scared me so bad that I can't sleep! Come on, why do they have to make such movies? Why does tony have to take me to such horrible movies. The movie makers just need to get a life & not have such horrible images on the screeen like that. I did fall asleep for a few scenes & I'd be glader if I did fall asleep for more than just a few scenes...maybe even half the movie b/c that would make my life so much better! I would be able to sleep right now as well as not here writing up a storm...which isnt bad at all, i just wish that these types of movies didnt scare the living shit out of me! i was shaking for awhile after this movie, i didnt see scenes in my head til the lights when out & I closed my eyes to sleep! this sux, it really does! I can't wait for the sun to come up b/c maybe then ill be able to sleep so that way when i see my parents i wont be totally out of it, ya know? I mean what am I going to say to them? Well Tony took me to that movie and last nite I couldn't close my eyes b/c of the images!!? I know and realize how much I sound like a baby, I know that I sound ridiculous to some of you but you know what? I don't care b/c this stuff freaks me out, makes me feel like that could happen to me. Even as I type this up, i keep thinking to myself parts of the movie, thinking I'm hearing noises like they're come to get me. The door is slightly open a bit & I'm keep looking at the door to make sure that no one's trying to kill me! I sound so sad now that I read what I'm writing but yet I still don't care. I am not the kind of girl who likes those sorts of movies at all!! Tony's going to pay for what he's done to me!
I just imed tony & told him how I felt about his little stunt yesterday:
(the reason I didn't say anything yesterday is b/c I was in the shock of the movie & still freakin out b/c of it)i hope that you are proud of yourself today making me look like an stupid!! Dave made a rude fuckin' comment and instead of sticking up for me, what did you do? exactly like always you did nothing!! You said nothing to say shut up dave or no dave dont make rude comments about my girlfriend dave! I am sick to death of dave making me look like an idiot, if i want to look like one ...i can do it better myself! i don't appreciate you not standing up for me at all either! I dont understand why you could've just said anything to dave! Why you had to let him walk all over me again & again & again & again...im sick of it! I dont care if he likes me it doesn't make it right at all, it doenst make it all ok just b/c he happens to think that im hot..i dont care, i dont feel that you even care to comment back like no dave, please would stop making mean comments about my girlfriend b/c i dont appreciate it but no you dont' do anything! im sorry to bring this up again but if he would just grow up & stop acting like a 5 yr old then i wouldnt have to bitch to you about it. the reason i didnt say anything back is b/c whenever i do, i just end up making matters worse for me so i say sure make fun of me dave, it's not like everyone didn't do that at one time or anything...yah everyone dave including my parents--do you think that i lived that? do you think that i deserved taht everyday? well i dont think so! so if you cant respect me as tonys girlfriend and not say rude comments then dont say anything at all or just dont come over or be around me if you cant watch your mouth! there, that's what i wanted to say him but didnt ok!? thats exactly what i wanted to say minus the swears that i wouldve put in for him! ok well sorry to upset you this morning but i didn't realize what happened yesterday til i couldnt sleep last nite thanks to your damn movie!
Well ok so it was sort of rude but what happens when you cant sleep at like 4:43 am you go a bit crazy! You get a little nuts! I did sent tony an im telling that i didnt mean to be mean and i those ims were very rude but i couldnt help it, im at this time & havent been able to sleep b/c im creeped out. Im totally creeped out right now & wish that i could stop being this way & i also wish that i would turn daylight so i could get some rest!! please! its going by so slowly right now & normally tony wakes up around 5 or 6am but since im counting on it, he wont be getting up til much later on..yah like around 8am. But maybe if i could get into tonys account i could delete the ims then i wouldnt have to worry about him bitching at me b/c that was rude of me...him & i can talk about Dave's behavior another way..like when we're both not upset or tired b/c they cant sleep!
on the upside(yah there is one)my earplugs work very well!! :) they block out everything that i dont want to hear!! :) so thats a plus right? well i think im going to look for free samples online to put on my board that i go to ...laters all!
have a good rest of the weekend....only 2 more days til we go to foxwoods! I can barely wait, just don't know how princess will react to us being gone for so long since we've never left alone for longer than 5 or 6 hrs and she freaked out then. ...man, i think sheila will have her hands full when she comes to check on princess tuesday nite and wednesday!! well have a good day all!
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